Confidence!

OK, so first of all, how in the hell are we almost at August 1? I thought it was like June yesterday or something…yikes. Second of all, I didn’t drink that pop yesterday! Woohoo!

Also, this:

My sentiments exactly

My sentiments exactly

I LOVE this e-card! (I will be posting them every so often and commenting on how the make me feel. I think these actually say a lot about our society, not to mention that usually they’re just friggin’ hilarious.) I have really noticed that after just losing 37 lbs, I have a much higher level of confidence than I used to. Most of my clothes (even before I lost the weight) are pretty baggy, because I NEVER wanted to wear anything that hugged my body in any way, shape, or form. I felt like the biscuits busting out of a Pillsbury can when I would wear stuff like that, so I’d just opt for shirts that gathered right below the boobs and flowed out from the waist, making me look even more huge and possibly even more pregnant than I ever was. (Note: I’ve never been pregnant. I will not be pregnant in the next 1.5-2 years, unless it is by some crazy accident. My husband is going back to school this fall and we need to wait until he graduates and gets hisself a JOB!) At any rate, I can wear clothes that are a little more shape-hugging now and feel completely ok about it. Today I wore a form-fitted sweater with black pants, and our visit coordinator commented that she can really, really tell that I’m losing. I cannot stress the importance of how this makes me or anyone else who is in this process feel–for real–it is so great to have a compliment!

I feel more confident when I go out with my husband now, or when I go out by myself. Sometimes I feel like maybe I need to tone it down on the “strutting my stuff” sort of thing because I still have 90 lbs or so to lose, but then I remind myself that I WORKED to get to 236 and I will own it. Get over it, y’all fat haters of the world, cause I won’t be fat much longer!

At any rate, I loved this e-card. It reminded me to wake up in the morning and remember that, so what, I’m fat, I can still be a sexy beast. And I shall. I shall indeed.

Happy Hump Day to All, more to come tomorrow! 🙂

Snap, Crackle, POP

First of all, big thanks to Katie at the Runs For Cookies blog (www.runsforcookies.com) for featuring my blog and me in her “Motivational Monday” post on 7/29/13! I LOVE that site and highly recommend it to any folks who are looking for good personal weight loss blogs.

Ok, so here’s the thing. I love, love, LOVE pop. No matter what flavor it is, I probably love it. I know there are lots of varying opinions out there on this, but I also firmly believe that pop (even diet!) is in no way, shape, or form, beneficial to the human body. I’ve read a lot of things that say that diet pop is almost worse than regular pop, because it is 1000 times “fake” sweeter, so it tricks your body into thinking it’s drinking something sweet, and then does the damage just like regular pop.

I have to keep this in mind when I fall into the, “but diet pop is 0 points!” train of thought. Before I re-started WW in mid-February, I have no idea how much pop I was even drinking a day. At least 2 cans a day, if not more. It’d be a mixture of diet and regular, but I NEEDED it to get through my day. I didn’t want to be super dependent on something like this, so I decided that I’d make the switch to *mostly* water. So although I still love pop, I limit myself to 1-2 per week, if that.

This week, I haven’t done so well on my pop quota. Patrick and I went out for lunch last Thursday, and I had a small glass of diet pepsi. I was really stressed out at work on Friday, so I had a can of Diet Coke. Sunday, I was REALLY craving a pop before Dexter, and ended up getting a small polar pop (still diet). While I haven’t had any regular pop and all of this is still technically 0 points, I’m somewhat disappointed that I’ve allowed myself 3 for the week. I’m even thinking about going back for a can this afternoon, as for some reason today I feel EXHAUSTED and just want that little burst of energy. I’m going to try really hard not to do it–we’ll have to see, lol.

Last night, Patrick and I went on another long walk on the trail, but this time with Clara. It was a wonderful walk–here are some pics of our trail!

Great weather!

Great weather!

A little creek!

A little creek!

We spent most of the walk talking about Sadie, and how we’re thinking about giving her back to the shelter where we got her. We’ve been thinking about it for a bit now, but are really starting to get pretty serious about it. It KILLS me to think about giving her up because I seriously love that dog to PIECES, but she and Clara really can’t ever be around each other without trying to kill each other. We have to keep them separated at all times, and I can’t imagine how stressful that is for them. She will be a great dog for someone who maybe only wants one dog or who has a dog that would get along with her–but let’s be real–we want to have kids someday, and I just don’t see how both our crazy dogs plus kids can fit in the picture together. At this point, I really feel like keeping her instead of giving her a home where she can be out and cute all the time is a lot more selfish on our part than anything else. Anyway, sorry for the downer! Not sure what will happen but I’ll keep y’all posted.

Tonight is zumba–so revved and ready for it! 4 days is seriously way too long to go without a zumba class, in my opinion. Our instructor might even add a new song/dance tonight, so I am super excited for that. Woooohoo! Hope everyone is having a great Tuesday–it’s almost hump day!!

Nom nom food nom

Well, this weekend turned out to be very relaxing, but I ate some food that was crazy delicious not super good for me. So I can’t remember where I left off in the last post–after I posted, Patrick and I and Sadie went on a suuuuuper long walk on the bike trail. It has been freakishly awesome weather, so I wanted to take advantage of it. Poor little Sadie got stung on her leg by a bee or something but was having a fantastic time being outside and seeing/smelling all the sights. When we got home, we were all worn out, and this picture of Sadie really says it all:

Love the face

Love the face

She was sooooo tired! It was adorable. Patrick and I were worn out too, so we spent the rest of the afternoon lounging before we headed out to Kleptz to meet my parents, aunt/uncle, and cousin/her kids. They are ADORABLE and super hilarious. It was a nice dinner–I sure did order a fried tenderloin sandwich with chips on the side. At first, I did great and only ate half of each. Then I kept picking at my chips, and finished them all…boo. Oh well, it wasn’t just a GIANT serving of them or anything. Then, when we left, I got in the car and proceeded to finish the 1/2 of the tenderloin I had left to take home. It’s not like I was even full though–I was still ravenous!! I’m not sure if this is because of the huge walk that we took and all the processed food after–I know that processed food hardly takes up any room in the stomach, so yeah. I was so surprised at myself (and annoyed) for eating that all, but I have let it go and moved on 🙂

Yesterday, we slept in a bit and woke up to a message from our best couple friends asking if we wanted to play frisbee golf. We couldn’t resist, as it had been a while since we’ve played and it was WAY too nice outside yesterday to stay in all day. So, we went to the park and played 9 holes (our friends’ 3 year old was melting down quickly!) instead of our normal 18. I count this as exercise because the park is REALLY hilly and we are constantly walking up and down the big steep hills to get to our frisbee/the next hole. It is so much fun, and it doesn’t feel like exercise (which, let’s be real…I love that!)

Our tradition is to go to DQ with all of our friends after disc golf, but no one could go yesterday so it was just Patrick and me. I got my favorite, a mini chocolate chip cookie dough blizzard. It really is pretty mini, but it’s the perfect size and it’s still a whopping 10 points. Fortunately, I had enough of these saved up in the day to do this.

Nom Nom Nom

Nom Nom Nom

Made some pretty badass BBQ chicken in the crockpot last night, and ate that with some yummy corn. Tonight it’s another quiche–I am OBSESSED with that ish! We’re also going to go out on the bike trail again tonight, but this time with Clara. She needs the workouts! Zumba tomorrow night, walk on treadmill (or trail, depending on weather) Wednesday, and weigh-in on Thursday. Hope everyone is having a great start to the week!

I Heart Saturdays

Yeah but for real...I do this.

Yeah but for real…I do this.

Sorry for the lack of a post yesterday! I had a crazy busy day at work and just got caught up with everything on my to-do list. Let’s see, where did I last leave all y’all? Patrick and I went to the BBQ place for lunch on Thursday and it was SOOO good, as usual. I got the pulled pork without a bun and sweet potato fries w/o the syrup that they pour all over it. I ate only about 1/2 of the meat but most of the fries–they are too good! Anyway, I was really full for the rest of the day, and zumba SUCKED!! Omg, it was so hard because of that heavy lunch I ate. That is certainly motivation to not eat that kind of food, at least before a big workout!

Oh well–I still got a great workout, but man was I sore/tired/sweaty/out of breath. Thursday night I was going to cook pork chops, but I got home from zumba and was waaaay too worn out/nauseous. I just put a thin crust frozen pizza in and ate a couple of small pieces for dinner with nothing else but some pineapple. I wasn’t really hungry.

As I already said, yesterday was a very busy day at work; I’m in charge of keeping track of all of the college fair invites for our university and sending in the RSVPs for each one. That is a LOT of college fairs, people! So that’s all I did yesterday morning. We also have an awesome summer camp for rising high school seniors called “Operation Catapult,” which is a 3 week camp where students come live on campus and work on math, science, or engineering projects. It is a really super cool camp and the kids are all really smart/fun, and yesterday was our closing for the second (and last) session. Which means lots and lots of parents! Each counselor in our office had to do a 30-40 min info session with parents and then at 5, we had a closing banquet in the dining hall for everybody. This dinner is the same menu every year, and my boss had told me what it’d be so I could figure out what I was going to eat ahead of time.

The menu was basically buffet style of either roast beef or a chicken breast, corn, green beans, mashed potatoes, rice with broccoli, rolls, salad, and dessert (apple pie, cherry pie, or iced brownie). I had already planned ahead to eat 1 chicken breast, a little bit of corn, a small serving of potatoes, broccoli (but not rice!), and a piece of apple pie–I did just that! Skipped the bread and butter and rice, so that’s good. It was actually really yummy and I sat with a very nice family. Their son had worked on the “human powered refrigerator” project and that group actually won 2nd place in “campers’ choice” of coolest projects! So that was neat.

Then it was off to Dungeons and Dragons game night. We had a lot more people playing than normal last night, but it was still really fun. I started to get sleepy around 10pm but we played until 1:30AM…AHHHHHH I was dying of tiredness. Usually we go to game night around 6, but since I had the banquet last night we didn’t get there until 7 or so. Every week that we do game night, we basically do a potluck dinner and I ALWAYS make dessert. Last night, though, I didn’t make any since Patrick and I had both eaten before going. The guys (and I say the guys because for the past 4 weeks my friend Bryanna has been off doing military stuff and so I was the only girl there) had made a bunch of Mexican food for dinner, so I said no to all of it…at first. But then it got to be 11pm and I was SO SO hungry! I ate a serving of tortilla chips and taco meat, which I really shouldn’t have, but this week with all my workouts I’ll get 32 activity points again and I don’t mind dipping into those a bit. So, I’ve already dipped into them by about 13 points (went over a bit on Thursday too) and I’m going to try not to dip into them any more this week. I DID manage to resist a delicious looking carrot bundt cake with cream cheese icing that our friend (and Dungeon Master!) J-man had made last night, which was a s-t-r-u-g-g-l-e as I really really really wanted to eat it! Phew, that was a narrow escape.

We didn’t go to bed until around 3 am (we had to take care of the dogs when we got home) and so we slept in until 11 or so. Today I’ve just had a bowl of Special K protein and will eat a 1/2 clif bar before Patrick and I go on the trail to walk with Sadie this time! It is SO nice outside–probably in the mid-70s with a really great breeze, it’s not hot at all! So we’re gonna walk for about an hour out there. My aunt/uncle/cousins are coming in town for a baseball game, so we’re going to meet them all and my parents at Kleptz (local restaurant) for dinner. Last time I went I got a salad, but this time I really think I might go to my old standby–fried tenderloin sandwich with chips…only eating 1/2 of each, of course! I get too full if I eat all of that anymore. (Obviously fried and not good for my arteries, but I don’t eat that kind of food every day or even 2-3 times a week anymore (like I used to!)

Shouldn’t go over my points today, so that’s good news. Tomorrow-Wednesday I really need to concentrate on staying within my points and working out hard like last week. If I stick to that, I’ll probably see another loss. Here’s to everyone out there–hope you have a great weekend! Clara sure is enjoying it!

She is happy but in this picture she is more like "WTF"

She is happy but in this picture she is more like “WTF”

Weigh-in Victory!

I lost 3 lbs this week! (Lol, at first my fatty fingers missed and typed “43 lbs”, I WISH!) Not only did I lose 3 lbs, but I also lost 1 inch off of my waist (now at 38 inches) and 1 inch off of my thighs! This is the very first inch in this whole journey that I’ve lost off my thighs; something tells me that Zumba might be responsible for this ;). I am so so ready to be losing off of my hips, but that is the area where my highest concentration of fat lies and I am thinking that unfortunately, it’s going to be the last thing to go! Boo. But I am not letting this negativity ruin my FREAKISHLY AWESOME weigh-in. For real. 3 lbs is friggin’ fantastic. You can’t really see it very well here, but:

Ignore my ugly toenails--I need to find time to paint them!

Ignore my ugly toenails–I need to find time to paint them!

Reflecting upon this last week, I’m not only proud of my loss, I’m also super proud of how I handled food and activity. I stayed within my point values almost every day this week, earned 32 activity points, and ate only 9 of those. (I swap my activity points for food before my weekly “free” 49 that I get from WW. I HATE using those 49 points unless I really need a treat.) I also only had 2 pops this week (I try to limit myself to no more than 2 diet pops per week if not less). I worked out 6 out of 7 days, and worked out HARD. Zumba on Thursday and Tuesday, interval training 2 mile on Sunday, 5k on treadmill on Monday, and I walked on the bike trail with my mom and doggie Clara (she got exercise, yay! I felt guilty after that last post…) for an hour last night. Worked up a great sweat! At any rate, I’m very happy that I was rewarded for my hard work on the scale. Not to mention that my pants are feeling looser and looser…too bad I have no $$ to buy clothes! Oh well…someday…

Back to the weigh-in…the scale says 236 in the pic, I promise! It was weird, as I stepped on the scale the first time and it still read 239. I was like AWW HELLLLL NO and then I stepped off and looked at the needle…it was resting at around 1-2 pounds. So I moved it with the little turney wheel thing back to zero and stepped on again. Then it read 236, and I stepped on and off like 5 more times just to make sure it was the same, and it was. Phew! I’m a bit skeptical of this scale anyway, but I’m going with the 236. I also re-calibrated the Quantum Scale so that next week it will tell me how much I’ve lost or (hopefully not!) gained since today.

I keep forgetting to post that I have these little jars that I made at the beginning of my journey–I like to call them “determination jars.” Basically, I have marbles in one that is labeled “pounds lost” and another labeled “pounds to go.” Every time I lose or gain, I move them from one to the other and vice versa. It is a GREAT visual, and I keep them on the kitchen counter so that when I am tempted to eat something I shouldn’t, I have a little motivation not to. Here they are:

Yay!

Yay!

Patrick and I are going to a local BBQ place for lunch today. I’m going to get pulled pork with no bun and sweet potato fries, but only eat 1/2 of each serving. Yum yum! Also, it’s almost the weekend!

It’s here!

I got my Quantum Scale in the mail yesterday, woohoo! I immediately pulled it out of the package last night and look how pretty it is!:

My fave color is green :)

My fave color is green 🙂

I of course was quite eager to calibrate and weigh myself on this thing and then re-weigh to see how accurate it actually is. So, I figured out how to program it (very easy, just read the directions!) and stepped on it with all my clothes on. I usually weigh without clothes on, so I figured I’d take them off and see what the difference was. Well, I programmed it wrong at first and ended up just weighing with my clothes on, which wasn’t an issue–since I don’t know how much my clothes actually weighed, I’m not sure if I’d really be able to tell how accurate it was. So I decided to pick up my dog (Clara) and stand with her on the scale to see what the difference was. When I programmed it correctly this time, it stored my weight without showing me the number (!) and I stepped on again with Clara. Sure enough, it said + 28.2 lbs. DANG she is kind of a fatty fat dog; I bet if she went to the vet he/she’d want her to lose weight…oh well. I must admit that we are really bad at getting our dogs exercise–we don’t take them on walks (it has been way too hot recently) and we just have a small duplex with no big back yard for them to run it 😦 Somehow I need to remedy this. They need exercise too!

At any rate, I have a weigh in tomorrow. I’m going to step on my old scale, record that weight on WW online, and then step on the Quantum Scale to program it again so that next week, I have a full week to tell me what I gained or lost (if that makes sense). I’m super excited to have the scale, and I’ll probably just use it exclusively now.

Thoughts on weigh-in tomorrow: not sure if I’ll lose at all this week, as I’ve REALLY bumped up my workout regimen lately. I’m doing 45-60 min of hardcore cardio for 5-6 days a week, so my muscles may retain water for a week or two. It’ll pay off though, I’m sure of it!

Hope everyone is having a great day–guess what: it’s HUMP DAY!

PS–I am eating fruits and veggies again, woo! I have strawberries and clementines for my snacks at work today, and I’ll be eating broccoli with dinner tonight. Wooo!

Me + 5k? Really?

Yesterday I decided that I want to sign up for a 5k walk sometime soon. I researched a bunch around the area, and found one that I reeeeeally want to sign up for but that I don’t think I’ll be able to do because of time/money/etc. It’s in Indianapolis and it’s basically a walk/run where you wear something from your favorite college/university!

I thought this would be a great opportunity to showcase the pride I have in the place where I work (not actually my alma mater, but I love it here regardless!) and to do a 5k at the same time. It’s on August 24th and I left work yesterday thinking that I was going to sign up for it. After talking to Patrick, though, I realized that it’s the weekend after Gencon (huge game festival in Indy) and we won’t necessarily have the gas $$ to get back up there. Boo. All the other 5k’s after this in both September and October are somewhat out of the question because I’ll be traveling for work during those months. So, the next closest 5k will be here in town in December, and is a 5k through a local park with lots of Christmas lights. Should be fun! I definitely plan on registering for this when the details actually become available!

Last night I went to the gym and got on the treadmill. Patrick came with me and walked for a bit too, it was awesome! When I looked at the treadmill menu, I saw this:

So many options!

So many options!

Yeah, we have that super awesome treadmill in our gym. It is sweet! So as you may or may not be able to see, there is a “5k” button. (This is a Nike Matrix treadmill…sooooooo nice). Since I had decided earlier that day that I wanted to walk a 5k, I was like, “oh I am SO doing the 5k workout” just to see if I could do it. And I could! I walked it in 58 minutes, with 38 of those minutes being at around 3.4 mph and about 10 of those minutes being at a 2.0 incline (that was SO HARD). I thought I was going to die around mile 2 but I kept pushing myself and before I knew it, I was at 3.1 miles and cooling down! It was awesome. I think I counted this workout to be about 6 points; I definitely finished it as a sweaty beast.

Went home to make a quiche for dinner and realized I had no pie crust, so scrambled eggs and bacon it was. I could barely eat 1/2 of it though–I just felt sickish to my stomach. Does this have to do with my workout? I ate a little bit of Graeter’s (best ice cream on the planet) for dessert and was done for eating for the night. Couldn’t handle any more than that!

As I type right now, I’m still feeling weird in my tummy. I don’t know if I’m dehydrated from my workouts recently or what–went to Mexican with the work ladies at lunch and I’m full, but I just feel weird. IDK. Going to get more water now!

Hope everyone is having a great Tuesday. Zumba tonight if I’m feeling up to it! 🙂